Growing up was easy for me. I did what everyone expected. I was who the community brought me up to be. I changed as I grew up, because I grew away. I started making my own decisions, taking care of the consequences and not regretting one moment.
I was born into an LDS family, not the hard core my ways the only way type. More laid back, but still my parents wanted us to go to church. I did, and as I got older church just didn't fit. I stopped going in high school, not because I didn't agree with the teachings or because I was doing wrong. I just fell away.
I'm not a bad person because I don't practice my religion.
You may wonder why this topic, but it because I find it hard to relate what I'm feeling to people who are active. They ask why I still call myself LDS, and what I did that makes me not want to go to church.
I just want them to know, just because I don't sit in sacrament with you, and help hold the hymn book doesn't mean I don't believe.
There have been many times in my life where I felt protected, and watched over by something more than this world. That ever calm that surround the hardest storms is there and I can't deny that, and I wont. I have faith, what I lack is the practice of my religion.
So quit judging people. Stop making them fell less of themselves for not being you. Understand that some show love in other ways, that good people come from all walks of life.
Thursday, November 6, 2008
#1 - For Fay
11-6-08
I read a book recently about love and losing that love. The writer was an editor for Rolling Stone magazine, and that book Love is a Mix Tape :Life and Loss One Song at a Time, got me thinking about the songs that fule my life. And what thoughts and emotions they envoke.
Most people who spend time with me will tell you I love music. I spend a lot of my time listening to, talking about, and singing along to all different types of music. So I thought for this my virgin trip into blogging I would share with you my current "mix tape", the songs that are pulsing through my veins and what my mind hears as the melody runs.
1. Unhappy - Thriving Ivory
- - - - > How many times do we pretend things are fine? Thats a word I know I use a lot. When people ask how im doing even if I'm not, "Fine" is the response they get. I seen this same thing from a lot of people. Are we scared to tell the truth? Does the person asking really want to know? Is this why we hide behind "fine?"
2. Where We Gonna Go From Here - Mat Kearney
- - - - > Life hits a stand still for a lot of people, and I know for me relationships hit that standing water faster than anything else. I end up getting to a point quickly where I think "Really? is this all its supposed to be? Should this mean more? Where do we go from here?" This might be why I'm single, but it also might be what saves me from something that shouldn't be happening.
3. Boston - Augustana
- - - -> First off I have to say this is one of the best bands to see live. If you get the chance, get as close to the stage as you can and just enjoy!!!
I've lived in the city for just over 3 years now, and some nights there is nothing I want more than to just pack up and leave. I feel there is nothing here for me, sure I have a great job, but what do I do when I'm not at that job? Nothing. The city has nothing to offer me. Thats when "I think I'll start a new life, I think I'll start it over where no one knows my name."
4. Feel This - Enation
- - - - > Do you ever just wish you could be completely honest with everyone. Scream from the top of your lungs whats going on with you, and everyone would just automatically understand? If your wondering what I'm talking about, listen to the song, it just gives this pulse this fire, I can't explain it. A good version of the song also is by Bethany Joy Galeotti featuring Enation (her husband is in the band) it so powerful.
5. Friend to a Stranger - Emerson Hart
- - - - > Ever feel like people in your life just melt away. There are so many people I miss with all my heart, but it doesn't seem that they feel the same way? Is it a by product of growing up? Did we really mean that much to each other to begin with?
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I'd love to hear feedback on my ranting. . . catch ya in the waking hours.
-Kristalynn
I read a book recently about love and losing that love. The writer was an editor for Rolling Stone magazine, and that book Love is a Mix Tape :Life and Loss One Song at a Time, got me thinking about the songs that fule my life. And what thoughts and emotions they envoke.
Most people who spend time with me will tell you I love music. I spend a lot of my time listening to, talking about, and singing along to all different types of music. So I thought for this my virgin trip into blogging I would share with you my current "mix tape", the songs that are pulsing through my veins and what my mind hears as the melody runs.
1. Unhappy - Thriving Ivory
- - - - > How many times do we pretend things are fine? Thats a word I know I use a lot. When people ask how im doing even if I'm not, "Fine" is the response they get. I seen this same thing from a lot of people. Are we scared to tell the truth? Does the person asking really want to know? Is this why we hide behind "fine?"
2. Where We Gonna Go From Here - Mat Kearney
- - - - > Life hits a stand still for a lot of people, and I know for me relationships hit that standing water faster than anything else. I end up getting to a point quickly where I think "Really? is this all its supposed to be? Should this mean more? Where do we go from here?" This might be why I'm single, but it also might be what saves me from something that shouldn't be happening.
3. Boston - Augustana
- - - -> First off I have to say this is one of the best bands to see live. If you get the chance, get as close to the stage as you can and just enjoy!!!
I've lived in the city for just over 3 years now, and some nights there is nothing I want more than to just pack up and leave. I feel there is nothing here for me, sure I have a great job, but what do I do when I'm not at that job? Nothing. The city has nothing to offer me. Thats when "I think I'll start a new life, I think I'll start it over where no one knows my name."
4. Feel This - Enation
- - - - > Do you ever just wish you could be completely honest with everyone. Scream from the top of your lungs whats going on with you, and everyone would just automatically understand? If your wondering what I'm talking about, listen to the song, it just gives this pulse this fire, I can't explain it. A good version of the song also is by Bethany Joy Galeotti featuring Enation (her husband is in the band) it so powerful.
5. Friend to a Stranger - Emerson Hart
- - - - > Ever feel like people in your life just melt away. There are so many people I miss with all my heart, but it doesn't seem that they feel the same way? Is it a by product of growing up? Did we really mean that much to each other to begin with?
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I'd love to hear feedback on my ranting. . . catch ya in the waking hours.
-Kristalynn
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