One more I really like

~The Best Book Never Read~ 2004

Its not just the broken heart that hurts
there's the disapointment hidden in their eyes,
a constant echo of critisism ringing in my ears
and even more cuts to make the lows out weigh the highs
so much pain in the continual tears
the melancholy blue pool
surrounding a large black hole
is no longer a window
but a place to begin building up the wall
its somewhere I can hide secrets
no one should know
to eager to love someone,
to hold up my gaurd
all to soon at putting the lies aside
I was ready to pretend my heart still existed
to put back together my shattered pride
It's continually on my mind
as to why its always me whos not good enough
and when oposing views are layed out
I cant muster the courage to rebuff
Im guilty for all the encouraging lies
the ones that say "thats fine," or "im okay,"
should i tell them?
because its been so long with me hiding
all i never dared to say its all over-
the perfect relationship with my imagination
there will be no happy ending
for the best book never read
but instead will end with a broken heart,
shattered pride
and one less lover left alive