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~Devil in My Head~ 2008

There's a demon that breeds during the darkness
A spawn of the witching hour,
breathing life into its paranoia lungs
bleeding fear that pools behind blood shot eyes.
Becoming a corpse, a remnant of a once vibrant host.
Small noises become voices,
echo's playing hide and seek.
Footsteps in barren hallways
and doors that open with no force. . .
The demon's here
in the dark. . .
faceless, haunting, captivating.
And spewing dementia
forcing torture on a tireless prisoner.
Call out it's name, face its terror
or run once, and insomnia will follow you
forever.

~White Noise~ 2006

What I need is to drown out the white noise in life.
The constant echo behind my eyes,
Laying in the in-between of what was once,
a completely different something
Life and love, hate and lust are all but blurred inside my ears
A reflective glare, of a brightly imprinted, colored past
The ghosts inside my room, haunting my walls
And an empty pillow where sleep no longer stays
Ever waking, and walking. Pacing the hallway
That echo in my eyes
Fighting its way out with every painful tear
I want no longer to be confined inside the walls I have always known
To break free will I do whats expected, or go further than myself
Along this path, carved in flesh and carpet
Can I find a hymn to help cover the sound
Constantly there, eternally sounding
The white noises, all the crazy, all lonely, all the everything my life has become
What I need is something, that point just passed the second star
My own eternal never-land,
where I don't have to move on
where I can just be

~The Long Drive~ 2006

I took the long drive today
Out to the lake
I watched the whitecaps break
As the wind tossed the water
The green inland sea
Fought hard as is was thrown
By the rain that beat it
Oh so violently
My mind feels Just that way
Being tossed and beaten
As I contemplate today
Where do I go
When childhood is over
Do I run like the water
Or do I stand firm
As the rocks it lands upon
I'm free as the wind
That pushes the waves
And as careless
As the breaking caps
Lost between here and there
No shore to anchor my direction
Does my future start
When the rain stops
And I'm left As the lake at rest
Ill just stay here
Waiting for sunset
As the tide tucks in the beach
Leave my confusion
Leave my frustration
To all to sink within the inland sea

~Broken~ 2005

a broken child now hangs her head
with a mind so full of his memory
shes tried so hard to forget
the endless days of summer
they spent enveloped in each other
have passed away to cold mornings
of a long awaited winter
at night she dreams
splint glances at a fraudulent past
and awakes to the daily reality
of a childhood taken much to fast
to tearful regret she writes
wanting to push it behind her
no comforting words can she find
in writing the heart that deceived her
through the sand of hours
time will pass away
with each moment that turns
a comeback of faith also may
with searching tears she'll find her answer
and prayerful hands shall bring her closer
hes out there doing just the same she knows
finding condolence
and learning to grow
although it haunts them both with increasing power
to overcome it,
that will be
faith and diligence' finest hour

~You and Me~ 2005

it was as i sat on the shore
watching the sun be put to sleep
that i thought of the dreams
the ones i no longer have
the ones of you and me
they were blurred
only bits and pieces
the happy moments spent between
the hurt you caused me
i laid on my back as the sky went black
trying to erase them all
the future and the plans
the ones of you and me
i shut my eyes and cried the tear's
felt the pain as my heart broke to pieces
for the lies you always told me
one last dream
one last thought
one last lie
one last moment
no more you and me